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Books I have completed reading since January 2021: 1. The Enchanted - Rene Denfield Friends and Enemies Akatsuki: Nightmares & Dreamscapes Amigo -beats in my head- Boredome's Arch-Enemy Chika-Chin's Anime Mania! empty white space Jolene In My World Keiichi's Hornet My Blah blah Bulogu My Little World Paietpa Sdovelly~ c'est la vie Serene's Silent Secrets Shuffle and Repear Threadless Tees Tolanic's Travel Blog Zaque | December 14 Saturday. 12.14.13 10:14 am Hmm... Let's do a haibun based on one of my memories regarding today starting with ... 2011... It was one of the coldest nights I have had endured in my whole life. I thought the wet winter in New Zealand is already extremely cold but here... on the ship is deadlier with the ship moving at full force. I tried wrapping my knees with my arms but I was so cold that I should have just brought along my beanie but I decided not to because I wanna spend more time with a friend. beanie I wanna take you but I chose him instead We sat on a bench and ... I had so many things to share from my heart but the wind was not interested to listen nor carry the message. I looked at my friend from behind and knew whatever my heart has to say would never left the heart... full moon the only listener of my racing heartbeat So we looked up the sky and enjoy the full moon peeking on us from behind a huge black cloud. I leaned on the wall and continued to look at his back and had the urge to bundle him because he looks so lonely... and small. His back reminded me a lot of a lyric I wrote some time ago. It totally described the whole situation we were in ... full moon in the mist - rubbing shoulder to shoulder My heart continued to race because I wanna pick up our conversation where we had left before our good ol' friend joined us with his instant noodle cup. I wanna hear what you have to say! love at first sight you say i blushed I looked at the moon again and asked myself if I wanna leave my confession as it is... Will I regret later? Full moon do you ever regret rising? Suddenly the skies were filled with shooting stars! Like every girl, I tried making a wish and... what a failure... I could not finish my sentence with three passing shooting stars... no wonder there are always millions so you can finish your sentence! Shooting star! May you rain forever! so my wish never runs dry! Shooting star! Don't run! Don't let this moment fly away! If only we could sit side by side very much longer! But the cold was just too unkind to us... so we decided to seek warmth... Warm, cold, only love has such extreme temperatures... This memory was still so clear even though a year has passed ... and in 2012 ... I wrote him a haiku to commemorate that day and I don't remember what I have written. I have actually been keeping that haiku in my head since April. It's amazing how easily I have forgotten it now. April to December waiting for 14 December And as usual, my messages went unanswered. I wonder deeply what he thinks of a girl that writes poetry for him. Or rather am I being plain stupid for putting so much effort in keeping in touch with a friend who makes less effort? Full moon still behind the clouds laughing at my innocence? But December was also an important month for me because I asked myself how long do I want keep moving on like a zombie... Why bother a guy who stays silent on this matter for almost a year? Or is it my email is not succinctly enough about this matter? Or is he just laughing at me and our friendship? full moon my only witness to my tears ... Anyways forwarding to 2013... My heart started to wane because I really have to move on. Moreover, my tiredness has been increasing over the past year. My health is too fragile to handle this heartbreak. And so I distracted myself with work ... Full moon replaced by sun rays - new goals My feelings for him started to ease and then I have totally forgotten about him until one day... the intense feelings I used to have for him came back to haunt me. I thought I have finally released him from my heart but it didn't. It was just half past six. The feelings were still wrapping around my heart like a vine but a forgotten one... It was a ticking bomb actually. yesterday memories came back without invitation The feelings drove me insane... and I did the impossible: burning the ties between me and him. I never thought I would come down to this stage whence I have considered doing this seriously in 2012 because I could feel him all the time despite being separated geographically. You found me because of the bridge you have established with me aeons, but this is also the very bridge I must burn to stay sane. I chose sanity over you. sanity or love? the world of insanity ... I met your guardian angel or your old soul who lent a helping hand. He forewarned if I were to burn the bridge you won't be able to find me again in the future. I could feel the fear surging in him as we speak... and so we made an agreement that I will only burn the bridges not the mouth. Why did I even seek help from your guardian? It is because I could not burn your bridge to mine. I have dissolved the bridge from my end to yours but yours to mine kept coming back after imaging pouring acid onto your bridge. It won't go away! Burning bridge You walked And survived... With your guardian's help, I was able to dissolve it for good and he has given me a message and the reason of your existence in my life. I also told him that our connection is strong enough for him to locate me without having the bridge. He has to trust himself... The guardian smiled and disappeared... Connected Between you and me A bridge made aeons ago... I told myself that no matter I will always love him and whatever I have gone through because of him happened for a reason. For that, I thank you even though it was not a reciprocal love. I will move on... Love Saved for The past For now, I will still remember the events behind 14 December, perhaps not for long... I will open my heart to love someone else too other than you... Full moon, full moon Come out And play with me! 0 Comments.
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