Books I have completed reading since January 2018:
1. No Man's Nightingale - Ruth Rendell
2. One Day - David Nicholls
3. The Door - Margaret Atwood
Friends and Enemies
Akatsuki: Nightmares & Dreamscapes
-beats in my head-
Chika-Chin's Anime Mania!
empty white space
In My World
My Blah blah Bulogu
My Little World
Sdovelly~ c'est la vie
Serene's Silent Secrets
Shuffle and Repear
Tolanic's Travel Blog
Sunday. 8.5.12 7:07 am
I am now in starbucks trying to unwind before I return to my home. However, I seemingly eavedropping a young couple's argument about not making decisions together and how the girl has forgotten how the guy has helped her so much during her troubled times. I could hear sniffing and there was no eye contact. The guy repeatedly saying she is no longer considerate of him and how she has changed. They were also arguing about money matters since the girl exploded that she will returned the money. The guy cooed 'of course... You now have money."
I looked askance to the couple and saw the girl hugging an original burberry bag. Trust me on branded stuffs, ok?
Their agument made me reminisce about my parents argument. It also brought back the pains I experienced during their fight. Although I was young at that time, I still felt the pain and agony as if I was one of the debaters. I was just an observer.
So much so, the pain never left but culminated in a thought or rather belief there is no such thing as love.
Despite witnessing my parent's marriage crumble as I grew up, I have spent half of life blaming them for what I am of today. However, as of now, I decided to let it go because it is too tiring to tie myself to this pole of unhappiness...
The guy lamented how much he spent on her like buying watch, bags and bla bla. And worse how much of energy he has spent on her.
The girl is crying heavily now, and I thought no matter how much he spent on her, I think he should really get her some tissue from the counter.
The suckest line he said to the girl was "do you remember how much my mother was against me to be with you?" It was your decision, guy. Do not put the blame on the girl.
The same goes to my father. It was his decision to have a family, so do not blurt how much he regrets of having me, my sister and marrying mother.
My friend reminded me again that even though I do not agree or became a victim due to my parents situation, I have to always remember that it was the best decision they can come up with at that time.
I feel I finally able to let go of my anger of my parents situation: nobody wants to be in the current situation where they no longer talk to each other. We are passing our days like strangers despite staying under the same roof.
So much of this drama, I believe in finding my own happy ending... one day.
:/ man you seem to be going through a lot. I'm sorry.
I hope you find peace soon and get through all that crap. Good luck with school :/ Don't give up!
I used to blame my parents for how much of an emotional wall I became because of them. I rarely saw my dad. They fought a lot and they never talked to me emotionally. It sucks but all I can do is grow from it and try not to make their mistakes.
» dont-see on 2012-08-08 07:39:54
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