As the subject title sounds very hurtful, I was actually being slapped with that via MSN Messenger yesterday at work. Well, the jerk in my office didn't say that sentence but I interpreted into that because it is easier to comprehend the damn replies he sent me though the original reason must have not been atuned to my translation but on the bottom line it means the same.

That sentence stemmed out from a conversation we had in the morning when I enquiried the jerk about an address of a featured restaurant in the newspaper. It is in Pudu and he's very familiar with that area. We were talking quite abnormally since I was careful with my sentence but somehow not careful enough... Why did so? Because I'm sick and tired of listening to him criticizing our own homeland and praising other countries's systems whatever out there that is much better than our present and current environment. I mean if you talk so much, why don't you go out there and make a difference? If not, just shut up, coward.

Somehow from the restaurant topic, we moved on to the subject of my workmate's farewell dinner to who and who is not attending to why they are not attending. One of the girls cannot make it because she needs to do some preparations before balik kampung (a Malaysian term of going home to one's hometown). The jerk was surprised to hear that because she and the guy who is leaving are close workmates. And he thought the given reason was too not-a-good-reason-enough-to-turn-down. But I don't blame her since it is planned at the eleventh hour and I also have actually planned not to go if they insisted of going to some same ol' restaurant we have had last month. I just don't really like the food and just think RM 28 for a buffet is not my cup of tea since I could only eat one round.

While we were chatting ... the jerk almost touched on criticism. And I told him to cut it out. He said he is enjoying making me mad so that he could try to hynoptise me as part of his psychology practice. Oh well, what to do when you end up in such a confine place with an aspire psychologist that has the potential look of a rapist, paedophile, molester and sex maniac? And thank god I have taken my revenge on him by saying the sentence above in the office. Right... so everyone in the office somehow agreed with me.

He said before I would be a good experiment subject but I told him cheekily not to study on me too much because I might be able to make you do "things" which somehow I can at certain times. Oh well for the record would be cursing my workmate in my head to turn off the air conditioner before she goes back in my head, etc.

And you know what he replied me? He said bluntly "I don't see how you have the leadership qualities in making people following you or leading the people" something like that. I was referring to something else and so did he. He added "Even you have the desire to change the world." And I went to say "SHYTE" in my head because I was careful to prevent this kind of issue. What did the hell just happen?

To be honest, I'm a human being so I dislike to hear this kind of criticism even though I hate to accept whatever criticism there is about me. But that sentence got me thinking critically. First thing hit in my head is:

1. People are born with leadership?
2. Leadership is a skill can be learnt and fostered/ cultivated?

To be neutral with him - even though I want to defend myself, I just replied "Do I have to be in the forefront to lead the people or to change the world? Not to be in the forefront doesn't mean I'm a coward. The time will come when you see me at the front."

And so our conversation ended. I was glad. I'm just tired of talking and explaining to such an avid reader and knowledgeable person about human qualities. He read lots of books on politics and such, doesn't that say he got brains? But I don't blame him since some politicians are not any brainier than him; some are still stubborn and beyond descriptions.

But back to my 2 questions. What he said made me very unhappy. Not because I know my leadership skill is weak but such weak faith in human beings in that people have to be born with qualities. So you saying murderers are born murderers? I'm an optimistic person. Giving me that reason is what I called a lame excuse. If you don't have what you want, then create it. Why procrastinate?

But the main thing is what is the point of having innate leadership skill when you have no desire to have a better world? Instead you dream of wreaking the world like the war on Iraq? Or just dream of closing one eye to everything, be it right or wrong? Hard to fathom my point? Simple example would be what is the point of a woman having ovaries and experiencing menstrual pain if she planned not to bear any children in her entire life?

When I replied him about being in the forefront, the jerk added that his friend dares to defy his Japanese government. Oh yea? What's the point of barking at a tree that doesn't understand your language? If it does, can the tree move? So? If I were to defy my government, you would stand beside me? So that I could be your pawn? My my... if the the tree doesn't move, I, at least the dog could move and translate what I barked into actions. That's more solid, which in turn attracts the attention of the people and then people might follow. Isn't that also a part of leadership? Isn't that how Gandhi won his followers?

This entry is truly long. I will rest my head now dot

That guy... thinks too highly of himself. He should look at himself first before commenting on someone else. What you say about the dog and the tree is true, I may not like the way things are but I know that all the complaining won't get me anywhere so I shut up after whining for a while. I wonder if he puts super glue on the mirror in order to prevent it from shattering into a million pieces when he looks into it.
» Nuttz on 2007-10-04 03:26:19

haha..
heh,thanks for d comment,heh.Maybe u and i could get to know each other and u could teach me to make some muffins?Heh.Cheers.

-Rach-
» larceling on 2007-10-04 05:57:05

That person really is an ass
How did you meet him anyway?
» Xboyz on 2007-10-04 09:21:13

That ass works at your office?
Owh god, go slap him for me please.. LOL
» Xboyz on 2007-10-04 09:51:42

Yes you can
xboyz001@hotmail.com
» Xboyz on 2007-10-04 09:56:15

=_="
renaye.. it's not like I don't wana do it when I'm free, I got one just earlier this week, another I've been forced into a group and my groupmates cant make a decision when to meet, and another needs a lot of analysis to write a response journal.
» Nuttz on 2007-10-04 10:45:56

erm... aiya when u r mad how to hypnotize...
he really smth wrong... just ignore him la.. or not he make u go so so mad .. somemore u r still sick...

Ignorant is bliss... ignore that devil
» jolenesiah on 2007-10-04 12:32:11

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