Speak to My Finger

I dreamed of Yamapi a week ago. I dreamed of giving him a tarot reading. But I was too excited to see him that I acted silly. Ugh! I did not give him a good impression! But I told him about career stuff like his wants to break into Hollywood. He had beard but it looked more a mane. He looked like those lion soft toys. So charming! I think anything works when you like a superstar.

I dreamed again this morning and I felt upset upon awakening. Thanks alarm. If I were to continue the dream perhaps I will feel better.

I did not really remember the beginning, but I know I have a handsome white husband. I was not Asian like now, I looked mixed with dark brown hair. I was feeling lucky and grateful to have him. I was dotting on him. At the beginning, I only saw him in action like talking to people. I know he is a leader as in leading something. And I was awe of him. Later there was a crisis. Everyone became hollow. I could see their outline but that's it... and so we were trying to fix that problem. I got no idea how... anyways, we first started moving to a subway. My arms were linked with his. I was enjoying those moments because it was quality time with my husband. After we came out of a train, I got attracted to a computer. Before I could check it out, he called me Camelot. I realised my family name was Camelot and he was Arthur. I quickly joined and I said to him 'I really miss you' because it had been a long time I have seen him on an adventure, but he kept quiet. I found it weird. Why didn't a husband response to a wife's 'missing you' sentence? I kept quiet too. As continued walking, we stumbled a gift shop that sells men fashiin wear. His father suddenly showed up and told Arthur to choose a tie. He was very ethusiastic about the tie designs but Arthur was annoyed and I was just observing everything. When Arthur had a chance to remove himself from that store, he suddenly asked me about my grandfather. He asked 'how was your grandfather like?'. I was surprised. I replied him with a surprise look. He then continued saying 'You are so different than her. You are so kind and always looking out for people.' Of course, silly! You are my husband! But suddenly he said 'How come she is not like you?'. Dum dum dum... who was he talking about? Suddenly I was feeling he was talking about his wife. I asked what was her name. He said Dragonfae 'The raven'. My grandfather was a dragon slayer and there were five either children or grandchildren he has. That Raven and I were one of them and we were cousins... I felt so confused... I was supposed to marry him not Raven! Things running in my mind was 'how did raven marry him earlier than me?'. I decided to leave as it is. I know what he meant: Raven was stern and not friendly. Arthur rummaged his pocket and found a ticket dated a year ago. It was our first lead, we were supposed to find out where did Arthur go a year ago and my feeling was telling me that ticket was somewhere he went with Raven. As we were about to map our actions, my alarm rang. Thanks.

I woke up with a mild uneasy feeling. Arthur was my husband but he was not? It was something my heart felt a thug.

Anyways, back to work on a Monday. Ugh.