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Books
Books I have completed reading since January 2017:

1. Angelopolis - Danielle Trussoni
2. The Magicians - Lev Grossman
3. The Magic Circle - Jenny Davidson
4. Memories - Lang Leav
5. Nightbird - Alice Hoffman
6. To The Devil - A Diva - Paul Magrs
7. Storm - Clive Cussler
8. Witchlight - Lisa Jane Smith
9. The Curse of the Cat Lady - Elly Driss
10. Handbags & Homicide - Dorothy Howell
11. Purses and Poisons - Dorothy Howell
Hey!
Saturday. 2.17.18 1:14 pm
Hey it's Chinese New Year! But it's just another holiday for me. A relaxing one that is.

I spent a lot of energy to clean my room so I am relaxing my muscle now. Oh yea, that's also because I was sick for the past few days due to food poisoning. I am fine with diarrhea because it's free detox! I don't understand why people are so afraid of diarrhea. You can consider mum and I crazy for welcoming diarrhea. It saves a few bucks on our detox stuff.

So what else did I do the past few days? Catching up on my anime. I dropped some anime which I was watching half-way. I am usually the type of completing them even though I dislike but this time I was courageous enough to drop. No point of investing in stories that don't benefit me. Won't you agree?

I am surprise that this time I am calm mentally that I won't be able collectt any red packet this year. Inside the red packet is money. =)

I am losing friends at a rapid rate too. I think it's time to replenish too. I have friends who stopped greeting me too. The worse of all we are playing the game of if-you-greet-me-I-will-greet-you-too-if-not-nope. I hated that. So I decided not to make any moves. I will only greet people who I know will reply me too.

Besides, I don't like friends who admonished me with sentences that rubbed me in the wrong way especially in the name of concern. Simply because I fucking never said in the same way they did so I appreciate if I were not given the same method. I have been a good listener to people but not the other way round. Next time, I should be paid for lending my ear. Hey that Japanese guy who is doing this as business is earning lucratively!

I should do the same thing too.

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Did the devil ate my gift?
Monday. 2.12.18 2:14 pm
What if the devil is innocent?

Only the devil knows.

I won a lucky draw today but it was short-lived like 10 minutes. After taking photo of my lucky draw item which are vouchers, I put in my bag. The moved to lining up for food. When I returned to my seat, the vouchers were gone from my bag.

I don't think I dropped them. The vouchers are thick so there is no way my eyes would miss it if they dropped to the ground.

My bag is deep but I have overturned it and they are not there!

So who ate my vouchers?

I returned to my office with severe heartbroken.

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Fed up
Thursday. 2.1.18 3:33 pm
This is not the first time I am posting the same old thing but still I need to reflect, inflect this shitty stuff.

Again, the same fucking person said the same old thing and worse I got told off in the face that 'I was rude.' Ok. It was my fault for messing your car radio but I am actually fucking HURT. Well, I did apologise profusely.

This person had said so many fucking hurting words and I never once said RUDE. Yea. Why am I so stupid for not saying that in his face? I think that was why I was soooo angry with him today.

Yea... the fuck that he said whatever he wants and I can't? He is very conflicting with himself and I don't like it. I have been avoiding him for some time but I met up with him recently because he was introducing me something that helps me. But still, why the heck am I putting up with his shitty mouth?

Ugh. I wonder.

The other one would be another guy asking me to use my youth to seduce any guys that I want because youth is just once in a lifetime thing. I hated that. When a friend asked me to follow how my friend uses her charms to win the guy, I was absolutely mad. Whether that is true or not, I don't agree with such method. I don't really believe in seducing the guy. Maybe because I don't know how.

A fortune teller said my smile is very expensive. I don't smile often especially to strangers. A friend said before I am pretty and yet I don't smile. I often exude aloofness. That's me. I smile often to my own standard. I smile whenever I like la. WTH.

Ok. Both guys also I don't want to talk to. I just want to have peace for my ears.

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Unexpected dream
Saturday. 1.20.18 4:27 pm
Be it extremely emotional, controversial, messed up, or whatever, this entry has been password protected.

If you know it, enter it; or, ask me for it.

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Last chance
Sunday. 12.10.17 3:35 pm
Man. I ruined my last chance for the year to get to know a guy better whom I view as good looking. I said something darn to him which gave him a poor image of myself.

ARGHHH!!! Can I rectify that situation? No. It's too late. I said something that actually does not need an apology but .... what is done is done... I cannot eat my words back.

I feel awful now and that whole reel scene is really haunting me now.

All I could see him talking to my other friends so relaxing. Man. Awkward now.

Anyways, I feel that the intellectual gap between us won't make us close. Is it my excuse? Not really. That's the truth. He seems always so business-y. I heard he only talks to people who are beneficial to him. I don't know. I am neutral. I have no comment since I never experienced that.

We talked for a while until my last message was not replied. Perhaps, my message was not intellectually. Anyways, it's ok. I am used to it.

What's there not to be custom to it? When another friend is not talking to me anymore. Omg. I have had enough.

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Too late
Tuesday. 12.5.17 1:17 pm
The song Apologise by Timbaland started to play in my head the moment I decided to write my mind.

The guy I used to be crazy about had sent me a second message via FB recently. The first was I miss you! The second was you looked great in this picture.

Unfortunately it was all too late. The last sentence that prompted me dump you was you said "you look like a bastard" when I showed you my new hair cut.

And now the sweet words.

Who would be so stupid to fall for you again after those hurtful words? That won't be me.

I am not desperate. After I found my freedom after dumping him, seriously, I realised I love myself more and this time I really don't want to be in a relationship. I suddenly remember how comfortable I am to be with myself. I think this is something people don't really understand. They keep telling me I am too weird and I just have to grab someone to marry just so I can be like anyone in the society regardless of my happiness level. I think they say so because they cannot withstand the loneliness, because they don't understand the meaning of being lonely.

What does lonely mean? It's the yearning feeling to be with others, be it talking or interacting. Why do we have to feel lonely when we are in the company of 'I'? I as in myself. Yes, we can talk to ourselves. We can ask ourselves what makes us happy. We can accompany ourselves to do the things that make us happy?? Do you remember the time you do silly things and then you just laugh at yourself? Why do we prefer others to make us happy?

I don't feel lonely.

Nor I am against others being in a relationship. I congratulate them! But just don't rub on me that I too need to get married just to be devoid of loneliness.

I am back to having a solitary life, a balance one that is. I still mix with my friends and I am involved in social activities.

Whatever he is doing... won't affect me. What a chameleon he is. Good looking for foul mouth dimwit. The worse.

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